>I probably shouldn’t write things like this when I’m more than a little emotional, but you know how it is when the moment strikes. A new year has never been much inspiration to me. It’s not that I’m not anxious for the new beginnings, the wiped-clean slate, the possibilities; it’s that I’ve always tried to keep these things as options throughout my year. I try hard to challenge myself, to change, to learn and grow always, so when the clock strikes midnight and we bid adieu to the last twelve months, I don’t usually feel too much pressure. But this year feels a little different to me because of the timing of some huge life decisions my husband and I made. Good timing, fate.
For almost five years, I buckled down and grew a business from dust to dreams and this year I put that dream aside to move on with new ones. I feel equal parts scared, sad, relieved, rejuvenated and excited about the prospects this opens for me. I still have one company that I very much adore, and I feel lucky to have it to fall back on. I’m also thankful that it’s something I’m able to do with more flexibility so I can spend more time with my kids. Do you have any idea how happy that makes me? It brings me to tears.
Remember when I said I want to write? To be published? That’s going to happen, too. I’ll write for a magazine and be paid for it this year. I promised myself. I’ll finally be able to say I’ve done what I have always wanted to do.
Remember when I said I wanted to do more good? I’m going to give of my time and myself to worthy causes and support the people whose work I admire and respect. This will include a focus on teaching others how to grow their businesses. I’m going to help them get the confidence to reach their dreams the way I did mine.
I’m going to take better care of myself. I’m going to face my fears and get those tests done, finally. I’m going to do whatever it takes to get this body back to health and make a commitment to being as healthy as I can for myself and my family.
We’re going to move homes. We love our house, but have outgrown it. I’ve always been afraid to commit to moving; I’m lazy. But this year I’ll turn this home into a gem, and find our dream home somewhere with giant trees and bunnies hopping through the backyard.
I’m going to surround myself with the people who add positive light to my life. Because, man, there are enough depressing things happening in our world without the petty drama we cling to so often.
I’m going to live life with intention and appreciation.
How ’bout you?