Death, birthdays and coffee
Our vet’s office called me the other day to let me know the paw print we ordered has arrived. I haven’t been able to bring myself to go pick it up yet, because I guess somehow that means she really is gone. In August, our cat was diagnosed with kitty pink eye (that’s the technical term, obviously) but after two courses of antibiotics it was clear that was a misdiagnosis.
As it turned out, Smokey had a rapidly-growing tumour in the bone above her eye and within a month, it had swollen to the point of her losing vision and had started to bleed. The vet advised that any potential treatment would be so invasive and painful that it wasn’t worth it for Smokey’s quality of life. We had to make the decision to have her euthanized in the end, and last Friday was her final day with us. To say I’m heartbroken is an understatement; I loved her so much. Knowing that she was in pain is terrible, yes, but making the decision to end her life was even worse. I’ve had three cats put down now, and my heart is never fully healed from those memories. For 13 years, she was my little companion, having been with me almost as long as I’ve known my husband. But it was the right decision, to give her relief from her pain. I guess I’ll go pick up that paw print today.
Following right behind the sadness was great happiness: Story turned six and had her birthday party on Saturday. (This means I really need to update her blog for her, oops.) We hired Creature Quest to come, and it was such a great day for the kids. (And, ok, for me, too. . . I totally enjoyed holding the animals.) I had fun decorating for her party and have some party ideas to share on the blog another day. I can’t even believe our little girl is six already. I can’t even put into words how proud I feel of her. She’s just such an incredible little person; so full of empathy, wisdom and love. She was so excited to hold that little turtle, and looked up at me with her soft eyes and tiny smile. . . oh, daughter, I love you so.
And not only is she all those things, she’s also so funny. So quirky and strange and totally hilarious. Check out the funny iMessages she sends me:
Completely awesome. She and Mason are just so different, but so incredibly amazing in their own ways. And so devoted to one another, it’s just adorable.
There is nothing quite like the love between these two. It’s the only thing in my life that has ever made me wish I had a sibling. And sure, they fight, but at the end of the day they snuggle up and sleep back-to-back and we wake in the mornings to find them holding hands.
This has been such a strange few months around our house. Ryan’s work is extremely busy, and he will be in London, England again next week. We’ve still been considering a move to a new (to us) house, and we’re getting stuff done around the house, which is completely new for us. We’re fairly lazy home owners and hadn’t really done much to this place since moving in seven years ago.
I’ve had time to myself lately thanks to full-day grade one for Story, and a couple hours of nursery school every morning for Mason. It’s almost surreal, having hot coffee and time to flip through a magazine. I even had time to leisurely shop for new bedding for our room. I know, crazy. I’ve been reading, learning how to use my embroidery sewing machine, and making official plans to re-open Clippo (in a totally new way!) in the early months of 2013.
And that all leads me to this little find, and a fun giveaway.
I came across this mug at Winner’s recently:
I’ve got two to give away and all you need to do to enter is leave a comment telling me your favourite thing about living an online life. I’ll draw two random winners from all entries on Sunday (Sept. 23) at about noon (EST).
I want to thank all of you who have been so supportive of me recently. It means the world to have people to chat with online when it feels awkward in real life. Though I realize the loss of our kitty isn’t huge in the grand scheme, it just felt like a second kick in the gut after having a rough time in August. Sometimes any loss brings up an old loss, and it just takes a little while to get back on the happy horse, y’know? So thank you. You’re why I like my online life. xo